Thursday, August 30, 2007
``_____.*so cold~~~bbbrrr~~~.#
jus finished bathing using COLD water, omg`!!! i'm now shivering...thought i could wake up...but then...it doesn't seems to help...and now, my back ache is like back...i want faints liaos`!!! ARGHS`!!!anyways, today went to school omgness`!!! siansation sia...and after school father came to sign my appeal letter...sians nahs`!!!then after that we went to buy some groceries and then father send me back home, sigh...i want to die here liaos`!!! somebody save me`!!!6:44 PM Z
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
``_____.*WTF`?.#
why is it that my parents will never believe me`? why is it thatt people always think that tattooing and piercings are only meant for gangsters/hooligans`? fcuk it man, why can't people accept tattoos and piercings as a form of body art`?
why are parents all like that`?
why can't they just give a lil' support in evreything you do`?
why do they always force people to do things that people dont want`?
why don't they look at the picture from another angle`?
other then scolding what else do they know`?
other then thnking that i'm a follower...what shit do they know`?
MY PARENTS NOE NUTS ABOUT MI`!!!people always say i'm cold blooded...ever wonder why`? ever wonder what makes me who i am today`? because parents don't understand...no one ever does...because you never took the time to know me...
what i loss will never be recovered ever again...
为什么从来不试试看去了解我、?7:58 PM Z
``_____.*kena liao lo`!!!.#
boo;;kena debar list liaos...sians...jus finish writin d appeal letter, wat crap were dey man...omg`!!!6:16 PM Z
``_____.*wat do u take mii for`?.#
fcuk off cans, ech time u tok to mii, u onii noe hw to ask mii whether still gt bf anots`!!! wen am i goin to brk wif my bf`? fcuk off la u`!!! cb`!!! dun thnk i dunnoe wat u're up to under ur sleeves`!!!if u realii wanna date mii, u wont ask dis arl, u wld have done so`!!! damn u`!!!他妈的、!!! 祝你永远找不到女朋友、!!!5:42 PM Z
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
``_____.*wat the....#
dis is so bored...have been emo-ing d hoe day. ARGHS`!!!
11:20 PM Z
``_____.*scared~~~.#
OMG`!!! why do they always show scary movies on screen during 7th mth of the lunar calendar...i so scare sia...arghs`!!! save mii`!!! hahas...bbbrrr`!!! feel that chill running down your spine`?!
8:45 PM Z
Monday, August 27, 2007
``_____.*BROKE AGAIN`!!! SOBXX SOBXX.#
went shopping again today, yaas, i guess i got to start to realise that spending won't bring me anywhere except for taking up space in my house`? =D and, now what...i got to start saving and have better plans`? think so`? so from today onwards, EVERYONE`!!! pls do not ask me out for shopping`!!! i decided to kick this habit...and in order for me to kick tis habit`!!! all of you have to help me`!!! so pls do check out my new INVESTMENT`!!!thankyou very much in advance`!!! =D2:01 AM Z
Sunday, August 26, 2007
``_____.*1s d mind is made up.#
wahs, went to work in the morning, tsk tsk...my work place really need people sia...hahas, everyone's looking for replacement...but then too bad, i cannot make it...boos;; it's not that i cannott make it la...but then yaas, i got loads of things to catch up with...and i'm really tired le...you simply don't know what i'm going through ehh...and yaas, got loads of things to buy also la....kekes... is it time to jus give up on studying`? if only these were minor decision...i wouldn't be thinking about it again, again AND again`!!! ARGHS`!!!i'm feeling so much inside...that...that...i don't even know how to put them down in words now...12:39 AM Z
Saturday, August 25, 2007
``_____.*i still miss tt....#
wahs, at last, jus now i went to cut my hair, actualii onii wanted to cut the fringe dee, budden in the end cut d back oso, cos like realii veri thick le...budden now d hair and last time dee machiam abit diff nehs...like veri stright liddat, nt enuff layer bahs...aniiways, it was way beta den b4 cut, cos b4 cut, looks like hw mani yrs ago dee hair`? hahas...yaas, aftr cuttin hair went to do sum shppin...intend to shp for more thng tml and sun`!!! SHPPIN WAN SUI`!!! hahas...there are so manii thngs i wish to buy...i'm gonna put up my wish list here again`!!! kakas...12:46 AM Z
Friday, August 24, 2007
``_____.*知人，知面，不知心、!!.#
i gt go sch todae kkaes, mai siao siao hors...woke up in d morn done wif d house chores den called 老爸 to bring mii to sch, wan mii to go sch riteXx`? mus sacrifice nohs...bo bian dee...was like blustin Jess fone...hahas, den aftr tt reached sch le, took d god damn mock test, i thnk dis time is fail again liaos la...sigh...siao liao la...damn tired cans, dunnoe whether wanna go cut hair anots...sians...d day b4 slpt at 3, woke up at 6+, den went to wrk, sians, close shp at 3:30, by d time reached hm 4+ le, den aft bathin cnt slp, so do sum hse chores till 5+ den slp...arghs`!! feel so shag now...quit sch`? it's time le bahs...aniiways, aftr doin d test tio siam liaos...went to d coffee shp to makan, den jess came, makan le tio go back to sch to hand in d report and CD, sigh...didn't went in wif huini and aries cos i dun wan see ramu's face, budden was bein called in aftr tt...tot kena scoldin liaos dis time...budden, yaas, guess wat...it wasn't scoldinn...it was a SURPRISE for d 4 of us`!!!we were given a set of paper, on top of it stated "PEI PEI'S PART" wahs, so are so noble and generous to hand in UR PART of the report, or shld i say u simply PIGGY BACK ur report wif sum othr grp`? u weren't even concern abt the project AT ALL`!!! u nva ask if we nid to print or wat so eva, thankiies to mii, i dun BEG from ppl, cos i noe hu will b der...so now wat, u intend to do ppt slides for UR PART ONII oso`? if it is, den fine wif mii, so be it...aftr all, no1 will appreciate wat we've done...no1 cares...dey onii care for demslvs...well...i finally excepted and gave up...dis will d last...nva eva again am i gonna b bothered by all these...thankiies, for d surprise, it was realii a big 1...take mii as though i'm transparent, i'll take u like u're invisible, dun even exist, dun force mii to my extreme, it'll do u no gd.thankiies, luckily my harrt was still strong enuff to take dis blow...phew`!!!4:56 PM Z
Thursday, August 23, 2007
``_____.*i love my blog`!!!.#
wakakas`!!! i love my blog`!!! y`? bcos it's d onii 1 hu will listen to mii and noes mii best...i'm so bored and has gt no tots to blog abt yet la...tts y here i am tokin rubbish`!!! =XxBLOGGIN ROX`ON2:46 PM Z
``_____.*i've made up my mind..#
dis morn woke up damn earlii cans...nb`!!! earlii in d morn kpkb`!!! left hse at 7:20, still l8 for sch...fcuk it`!!! 1hr+ bus ride`!!! cb`!!! den wen i ask teacher q, he fcukin hell look at mii and than ignore mii, budden wen d ppl infront ask, hw ans dem ccb`!!! hw motivating my teacher is ehh`?hw 9s to have a teacher like u...THANKS lehs`!!!nb`!!! ltr still have to wrk, regret sayin i can hlp her budden evrytime she ask mii i oso reject her...paiseh la...budden now hw to hlp ppl wen i cnt even hlp myslf now`? arghs`!!! sumbodii SAVE mii`!!! ='((DISCRIMINATED))'=笑着哭最痛i'm nt plyin MISS NICE aniimore`!!!i live for myslf`!!!1:49 PM Z
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
``_____.*i H8 SCHOOL`!!!.#
damn`!!! y in d blue hell do we even have to go to sch`? dis is like fcuk`!!! arghs`!!!fcuk it`!!! y am i even doin projects now`? wat d fcuk was i thnkin`?so manii thngs have been happening lately and yet my parents still blame mii for nt goin to sch...y won't dey eva understand`!!! it's wat and hw i feels inside...wat were dey thnkin`? y won't dey listen to mii`? tts wat the teacher told u wat...tt wasn't wat he told mii...all he said was, "dabar list will be out nxt wk, so pls do the necessery". and it means, i will jus have to wait for d debar list...难道在他们的眼里我就是一无是处吗、?为什么他们永远不会体会我的心、?为何重来不问我到底有什么感觉、?算了吧、!!!我看就算我说了他们也不会信的、!!!到底什么是家、?我真的很累了。。。到底路还有多长、?到底还有多少波折要受、?有谁能够和我分担、?i've owaes wished to slp and nva wake up to reality...rather than owaes havin to cry myslf to slp. it's so torturin...feel mii`?11:37 PM Z
``_____.*tattoos last longer than romance`!!!.#
yupXx, well said isn't it, tattoos last longer than romance`!!! i've decided tt wen d time is rite, i'll go gt mine`!!! least it'd last...dun u thnk so`? rather den havin dos harrtless animals by my side, wastin space in my hse`!!!11:09 PM Z
``_____.*i give up`!!!.#
sigh...early in d morn kena slashin frm mother liaos...cos nva go sch again...sigh...i jus wanna die la`!!!teacher say debar list will b out dis week, so wats d use of still goin to sch`?i guess i'm too use to wrkin life...i jus cnt put aniithng frm d bk into my brain aniimore...i learn beta watchin and hands on`!!! arghs`!!!and yaas, bitch and bastard`!!! both of u are disgustin`!!! fancy havin ur nude pic posted on ur own friendster, u itchy si bo`? ur bf nt enuff mehs`? wan ppl to noe hw shameless u are si bo`? or issit bcos u scare ppl dunnoe u are tt shameless`?such a disgrace to gals, dun u have anii pride at all`? i guess u dun...arghs`!!! guys are all bloody fcukers nahs`!!!4:17 PM Z
``_____.*mix feelins.#
yaas, havin mix feelin, i dunnoe whether i feel disgusted by him, or i'm feelin hurt for her...almost cried out while complainin to aries...now...i gt no mood to do project at all`!!! dis is so sickenin`!!!god, if u love her, make mii feel d hurt for her...i can take more than wat she can...least...i tot so...ppl hu look tough and strong on d outside, are usalii d ones hu are actualii weaker on d inside...dey tend to b d ones hu'll nid more of evrythng *excludin material*.i cnt promise to make u feel beta,i cnt promise to take awae dd hurt u're feelin...budden i can promise to der for u wen eva i can make it for u.rmbr...u still have mii...tts wat frens are for...3:01 AM Z
Monday, August 20, 2007
``_____.*最熟悉的陌生人.#
i'm still feelin guilty abt bringin d news to her...budden i cnt see her thnkin and missin abt him and den there he is enjoyin awae wif his new love`!!! damn`!!!arghs`!!! y`?! y`?! y issit tt guys can let go so easily`? it's onii like 2weeks+ and he found a new love`? damn`!!! dis is fcukin digustin cans`!!! dun he feel hurt at all`? where has all d love gone to`? wat are dey thnkin`? hw does their harrt feels`? WTF`!!! now i feel like fcukin hell give him a tite slap and make him wake up`!!! arghs`!!! now i fcukin h8 guys`!!! where did all dos thng u assured went to`?was it all a lie`?was it jus to fill tt emptiness`?was it bcus it's jus nature`?was it bcos guys are jus animals`?or...was it bcos gals are jus too softharrted`?love`? did it even exist in u at all`? gosh`!!!there's no such thng as a perfect relationship`!!! nobodii wants to b hurt...gal, it's time u give up ehh`? strt anew...u dun wann gt stuck in dis foreva...yaas, it's easier said den done. budden again, i onii wan wat's gd for ppl arnd mii...i dun wan aniibodii to b as cold blodded as mii...i love my frenXx...tts y wen i say frenXx, i mean frenXx4eva. i dun wan anii of u to b hurt...it feel teribly miserable...realii...budden...hw to stand up wen d cut is so deep`? wen it hurts like nobodii's business`? wen d tots run wild`?and therefore...guys...pls do assure ur love wen u dun even feel d chemistry...u'll make sum1 like mii bcum as cold blooded as i am now...and when evry1 bcums like mii...dis wrld mite b filled wif hatred.shame on u if u fool mii 1s, shame on mii if u fooled mii twice`!is dis all realii retribution`?if it is...den well...i guess mine's nt far awae...sum1 will cum gt back at mii snatchin my bf, and den he'll run...at least tts wat i believe now...lets jus wait and see...等你回心转意。jus finish watchin shw, does happily eva aftr realii exist`?can i have a bf tt has gt a size like TAY PING HUI`? ALLAN WU oso nt bad`!!!sense of security sia`!!! i like~~~4:43 PM Z
Sunday, August 19, 2007
``_____.*yes, i am crazii`!!! so wat's ur prob`?.#
wOahs...wen was d lst time i have sun to myslf`?dun have to wrl todae, dun have to go sch, dun have to do aniithng`!!!song bo`!!!budden...sigh...home ALONE`!!!nb`!!!had instant food for breakfast, lunch and dinner...dis is do sick`!!! i've been havin instant food for like dunnoe hw long liaos...sigh...wan die liaos...hao bahs, now i wanna go memorize lyrics liaos`!!! singin wan sui`!!!8:28 PM Z
``_____.*my PRIDE`!.#
dis is so fcukin digustin`!!! i am still physically, mentally and emotionally tired...pls hlp mii solve all dis prob sum1 pls`!!! ARGHS`!!! now have to pia project again`!!! sigh...i wan go die liaos...y am i even doin project wen i cnt even b bothered abt appealin`?i decided to give up evrythng and sit here and do nuttin abt myslf alr...half a yr ltr u all will see g3rl bein covered by a layer of cob web...yaas...and den, pls do not try to dust it awae for mii...jus leave mii alone as i am`!!!bcos of dis thng "PRIDE" i have to put up a front...nt lettin anii1 noe d real mii...bcos i am jus a gutless freak...so afraid of hw ppl will see mii...and dis is so tirin...i nid...i nid...i nid...GOD`!!! PLS LET MI R.I.Pgod...u're so unfair towards mii...y do u owaes give mii hope and den cast mii aside thnkin i cld stand by myslf...god am i tired...i nid u to give mii sumthng real to rely on...sumthng tt will make mii have sense of security...feel bein loved...nva bein neglected...i cry in d nite when no1 can see my tears...and as for u dis self centered bitch`!!! gr8`!!! serve u riteXx`!!! i hope no1 take ova u tml`!!! evrybodii beta fcuk care u`!!! cos u are jus like tt`!!! u fcuk care ppl so now i hope evry1 oso will fcuk care u`!!! nb`!!! u made mii do dis`!!!ARGHS`!!! I JUS H8 SELF CENTERED PPL`!!!1:20 AM Z
Thursday, August 16, 2007
``_____.*BORIN`!!!.#
boo;;hahas, todae is a god damn borin dae cans...went to sch and was like l8 again...=DDden tt s2pid adn teacher owaes dun wan bothr abt mii dee...ans him he oso bo chap mii...so end up listenin to music, den aftr sch nia tio straight awae cum hm le...song bo`!!! i am so guais evryday cans...=Xxhahas, den reached hm while goin through sum tots i fell aslp..hahas...phew...luckily gt up in time to rush dwn to holland v. hahas...and den nw i'm home again...wif nuttin to do...=DD1:18 AM Z
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
``_____.*where is tt guardian angel of mine`?.#
where in d wrld have u been hidin`? i onii wish tt u'll b here by my side to guide mii thru all these shit i'm goin thru.say u love mii evry wakin moments, turn my head wif toks of summertime...say u nid mii wif u, nw n owaes, promise mii tat all u said is true...say u'll share wif mii 1 love, 1 lifetime...say the word n i will follow u...share ech day wif mii, ech nite, ech mornin...aniiwhere u go let mii go too...say u love mii...tats all i ask of u...~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I'm jus a child of the wildirness, born into emptiness...learn to b lonely, learn to find my way in darkness...hu will b der for mii`? comfort and care for mii`?learn to b lonely, learn to b my own companionSo i luff in my own loneliness, learn to love life can b loved alone~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
u were 1s my 1 companion, u were all tat mattered...u were 1s a fren and love, then my world was shattered...wishin u were sumhow here again, wishin u were sumhow near...sumtimes it seem if i jus drm...sumhow u wld b here...wishin i cld hear ur voice again...noein tt i nva wld...drmin of u won't hlp mii to do all tt u drmed i cld...passin bells and sculted angels...cold and monumental seem for u d wrong companions...u were warm and gentle...too manii yrs i've been fitin back tears...y cnt d past jus die`?wishin u were sumhow here again noein we mus say goodbye...try to forgive teach mii to live, give mii the strength to try...no more memories, no more silient tears...no more gazin across d wasted yrs...help mii say goodbye...~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
here i am...waitin for d nxt challange of my life...wat wld i do to it`? will i jus sit back and watch thngs to by mii`?or...wld i do sumthng`?COME WAT MAY`!!!i'm jus a stranger inside...searchin for...hu noes`?all u nided to do was to spend sum time noein mii...thngs are usualii mistaken wen u nva took d time to noe it...9:32 PM Z
``_____.*Wat is dis`?.#
l8 for sch again todae...sians...did nuttin as usual, so waited for time to past...and den aftr sch tio come straight hm hors, mai siao siao...i am so guais liaos cans...=Xx
todae abs and leg muscles all achin...omg`!!! faints`!!! try havin a pimple grown on ur labret piercing`!!! damnit`!!!dun judge mii wen u dun even noe mii cans...fcukin h8 it dis way...dun try to act as though u noe evrythng wen u noe nuts...i've been through more than u eva tot so`!!! dun strt thnkin dis and sayin tt abt mii`!!! damn u`!!! in 1 1st place, if u eva tok abt mii`!!! pls la`!!! gt a life cans`!!! pls have ur own life rather den speakin ill of ppl cans`!!! arghs`!!!3:49 PM Z
Monday, August 13, 2007
``_____.*fakin d smile..#
woahs, todae i gt go sch kkaes...kakas...and i oso gt go S.W cans`!!! mai siao siao hors, wakakas`!!!y do we nva noe wat we gt till it's gone`?7:10 PM Z
``_____.*wtf`?.#
wrked full shift lst nite, den was like god damn tired cans...aftr tt went to pf3 to pass d sales baggy and slack der for awhile, and wen i was abt to leave den i realise tt i left my wallet at pf1...knn dee...realii is stm sia...arghs`!!! so of cos i have to go back and take la...nb dee`!!! aftr tt went to mustafa again to shp for daily nids den DD came to fetch, so i went to shp and hlp dem open la...den aftr openin DD fetch mii hm woahs, abt 10+ den slp again sia...den woke up so manii times cans...cos of my s2pid stomach la..havent been feelin well...hope i die faster cans...evry1 pls hlp mii pray`!!! arghs`!!! in d end 6+ i gave up, dun wan slp liaos...so bring ah chow to rivervale mall to pack food hm...hahas, rushed hm of cos, cos i wanna watch TOY STORY2...kakas...and den till now nohs...still feelin slppy nehs...y sia...i slpt for so long le...y still will feel so tired dee`?12:55 AM Z
Friday, August 10, 2007
``_____.*have you ever....#
TODAEwOahs`!!! aries woke mii up for sch...sians arhs`!!! den aftr sch mii, jess and huini went to have lunch, aftr tt tio go and buy s/w maker for pf1, den tio came hm le cos jess nid to go for wrk...and den till now..nuttin to do at hm`!!! ARGHS`!!! dis is killin`!!!d k-session is nt even hlpin`!!! wat am i to do now`?yaas, todae at sch...was thnkin to myslf "hhmmm, todae is 100807, it was suppose to b 5yrs tgt alr..." den i tot again "ehh...y am i thnki dis way...i shldn't b thnkin dis way..." hahas, so i burst my bubble again...
090807HAPPY NATIONAL DAY`!!!
hmpf`!!! didn't gt to watch dis yr NDP live`!!! hmpf`!!! no gd dee`!!! aniiways, yaas, woke up at 4, went to S.D to mit mei, den went to China Town to makan, den mei went to wrk, so i oso went to her wrk place, den saw her frens, hahas, nb dee, say i look like ah lian w/o spects and make up`!!! blehs`!!! and den aftr jess and aries finish makan den dey sum up and look for mii, wahs...den we sangs for like onii 5hrs la...actualii...i thnk is less den tt nohs, den aftr tt took a bus to Hougang den DD came to fetch mii and aries home, wahs, slpt at abt 3...damn tired...
080807hhhmmm, take ova jess shift at pf1 closed at abt 5:30 den went to MUSTAFA again, den wait for DD to cum and fetch mii, wahs, went to d shp, by the time finish openin alrdy abt 9 liaos, den DD bring mi hm to orh orh, wahs...by the time remove make-up and all...slpt at 10+
wan die liaos...8:23 PM Z
Monday, August 06, 2007
``_____.*bored bored bored`!!!.#
sigh...yaas, aries say i'm mentally, emotionally and pysically tired...i'm...tryin to get more rest alr...yaas, budden...restin can onii help physically...wat abt mentally and emotionlly`?4:14 PM Z
Sunday, August 05, 2007
``_____.*wat the fark la`?.#
sigh...i sudd feel so weak these few days...feel like dyin le...dis new born's nt hlpin...arghs`!!!
wat i nid, u dunnoe...wat i wan, u dunnoe...wat i did, u dunnoe...bcos u nva took d time to noe mii...sigh, lst thurs 3 couples broke up...fark it la...excuses`!!!
he jus wanted a break up...it takes 2 hands to clap...so if u're d givin all d time and he has been onii receivin, den wat's d point of bein tgt, well, i noe it's nt abt hu's givin more or less...bt, hey gals, pls la, wake up la...have sum pride cans`? u owaes say "dis time confirm is brk liao la...i won't give him aniimore chance dee...", budden in d end nehs`? u farkin hell go back to him wat...i despise u cans...he did all dos bcos he wants u to feel guilty abt d brk up even if it's nt ur fault...he will say till it's ur fault...gt it`?so pls farkin hell bring sum pride out and jus accept it...u dun even noe urslf...12:31 AM Z
Friday, August 03, 2007
``_____.*pierced.#
woahs, i dunnoe pu wat siao, todae see jess nia tio tell her aftr sch go pierce navel...sigh...so aftr sch, mii jess and jane went to Orchard, cos jane oso wanna buy her stud, and den yaas, it was pierced... so now i gt a new born precious lil thng...aftr piercin, den it was jess's turn, den i was like...wah lau, goin to faint nohs...machiam dos feelin like tt time kena dengue liddat, see blank white, den machiam goin to fall aniitime, and cnt hear...machiam in drm land...go to heaven i guess...aftr piercin, we tio go shppin abit, cos jess wanna buy thngs...shp ho liaos, mii and jane tio went hm cos jane nid to wrk, den i wanna go to MM's shp...aniiways, yaas, i had d navel pierced bcos i wanted to have sumthng to concentrate on, to nt have dos s2pid tots of mine...bt...jus like my horoscopes says...no point doin these thngs...i shldn't have see it...y am i torturin myslf dis way....and...sigh..yst 2couples brk up...arghs`!!! issit bcos d guys or issit bcos of us gals`?issit wat dey do...or issit wat dey didn't do`?y issit tt...tt...sigh...jus wat the fark am i doin...cryin myslf awae these slpless niteXx...it's nt gonna hlp...bt...der's nuttin i can do either...i had enuff`!!! thank god for torturin mii dis way...u're givin mii more than i can take...i am onii human...11:39 PM Z
``_____.*dedicated to ****.#
well, take it ez gal, sumtimes thngs are jus like tt, we try too hard and lil did we found out tt thngs jus doesn't turn out to b wat we tot it was suppose to b...bt it's okkaes, an endin of a chapter means a new strt of anothr isn't it`?cnt blame u for bein moved, if he can give u d stability tt u nidded, i guess u wldn't even b bothered...it was him hu gave u d chance to b moved...so dun blame urslf for nt bein stable...owaes look on d bright side of life...ppl owaes say i'm a cold blooded person...bt...y dun dey eva thnk tt wat was it tt makes mii wat i am todae`? so pls do nt aniihw say or do thng w/o thnkin of d consequeces...u mite turn sum1 like mii to a cold blooded person...u will nva noe...i cnt even cry...dis is so miserable...my harrt aches...bt, i doesn't seem to respond to it, or mayb say i dun have anii reaction towards it...ech time tear flood my eyes, i will nva fail to hold dem back. thanks for makin mii so much stronger...hw i wish 1 day, i cld jus delete my memories jus like d way i delete files in d com. all these memories are huantin mii...i dun wanna rmbr dem...nt anii of dem at all pls...i wanna strt anew...i dun wanna do wat i did...dos thngs are jus terrible...12:24 AM Z
Thursday, August 02, 2007
``_____.*i nid a brk.#
sigh...all oso my fren wat, den wat do u expect mii to do, dun kip tryin to put d blame on urslf cans`? if der is sum1 to blame, den i mite as well take it, all i wanted was evry1 to compromise...y cnt we jus finish these 2yrs wif no conflict`? issit realii so difficult`?jus now went out wif Jane, yaas, even she is so concern abt wat happened, so y cnt u all jus compromise`?wat snatch fren`? wat's wif dis`? even if todae it's nt her, der'll b sum1 else, bcos we are dos veri sociable type, tts y we can clique wif anii1 easily...we're all classmates wat, y cnt jus b frens like u did...even if nt, y mus u h8`?i noe u dun like her dee la, i see ppl, bo sa la ehh...bcos of tt incident, now u like abit bias towards her...budden, u cnt let dis affect d hoe of ur sch days wat...we mus learn to forgive and forget...and, well, i noe u blame us for nt tellin u tt project has strted, it's nt we dun wanna tell u, is bcos i thnk tt i dunnid u to do aniithng yet, nt onii u dunnoe, take jess for example, i noe she's bz, tt y dos tt we can do, we'll jus do...and her scene is oso lst min cos we dunnoe hw to do den i ask her to do dee...she oso dunnoe projectstrted wat, wen i nid u, of cos i will let u noe...pls dun go and compare hu do more or less cans...by nw u all shld noe, i divide wrk accordin to evry1's own ability, and, i noe u dun wanna do ppt cos u cnt pia it out, fine, so of cos i do, cos i can pia it out, d most i dun go sch onii wat, my att no gd, is my business ritex...i'm fine wif dis...and, wat i dun like, is, wen i ask sum1 sumthng, i expect an ans, esp wen it's on project, i am nt askin u where u wanna eat, i am askin u sumthng serious, so pls ans mii...dun jus kip quiet, kippin quiet brings u nowhere...and, wen i ask u to do sumthng, dun say "ehh, i dunnoe leh...hw arhs`?" if i noe hw, den all i do liaos wat...omg`!!!it's okkaes, no1 wanna take up d responsibility to b d leader...okkaes, to us, it's like yes, leader, so wat`? i'm fine bein 1, aftr all, i'm learnin...gainin knowledge...nt say evrythng oso can say "dunnoe"dee..."dunnoe" is nt an solution...it's onii an excuse...for u to avoid thngs...and if we kip avoidin, we'll nva learn...and if u're so afraid of takin d risk to do it...den i wont let u do aniithng, jus lemme noe, dun i ask u do liaos den cum tell mii "huh...budden blah blah blah..."and if u thnk tt u're realii hapii wif dem, of cos i wont stp u, u have ur own freedom to choose ur own frens, hu u wanna b wif...i oso wont go say dey snatch u frm us or wat so eva...it's ur choice to b wif dem...if tt makes u a happier person, well, so b it...u noe i dun like to force ppl to do thngs or stp ppl frm doin thngs dey like...budden y are u treatin us all machiam transparent eh`? i dun eat glass grow up dee cans, and hors, pls do nt bad mouth, though i'm nt realii bothered by it, budden yaas, dey are givin us attitude, shootin us wif glares, even though i nva see it, yalahs, dey saw it la...and if dey wanna listen to 1 side story, i oso cnt b bothered to go explain myslf le...i'm sick and tired of evrythng...i nid to wrk, still nid to face all these...can u all at least understand abit and strt compromisin`? it's nt tt i am so kpo...budden it's kinda affectin mii in sum way or anothr, all oso my frens, and den sudd sum gt bad impression and all, all...nt gttin d rite picture and den jump onto conclusion...gosh`!!!i jus h8 it wen ppl accuse mii and dun trust mii...esp wen dey dunnoe wat and hw i thnk...dey strt judgin mii...evrythng has gt more than 1 side...pros and cons, top and bottom, front and back, even wen we say sides, der is 1 left and d othr rite...y make mii say thngs tt i dun wan to`? mus it realii b dis way`?we'll nva learn to b brave and strong if der's onii joy in d world.so b it bahs...tts all...for now...9:25 PM Z
``_____.*dyin.#
sigh...i thnk i'm dyin...haven been feelin well for like...i dunnoe hw long...sum1 pls jus end my life here cans`? sigh...tt day stomach cramp back ache den aftr tt stomach ache wanna vomit oso cnt...nuttin cums out...nut and banana`!!! todae again liddat`!!! arghs`!!! dun wan eat aniithng liao la`!!!7:58 PM Z
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
``_____.*FARKIN CB`!!!.#
cb, on d way to sch, kenna slashin frm mother`!!! CCB`!!! tt bloody ramu called my parents, pls la, yaas, i admit, my result is d worst in class, mayb even in sch, bt hw can u say i nva go sch, wen der i am tryin to wake up`? damn it la`!!! pls gt situation rite b4 givin it a conclusion cans`?y issit tt adults will nva understand`?y do dey owaes conclude sumthng w/o givin it sum tots.y dun dey thnk`?do dey even have brain or issit bcos theirs was like a pea`?okkaes lors, since evrybodii conclude i dun care, den fine wif it, i'll shw u tt I DUN CARE`!!!alr so manii thngs liaos, sch, wrk, r.s, frenx, familii...wen will all these b solved`?till my dyin day`!!!5:51 PM Z
